To her, to you…

Yes, It’s summer! How’s it going?

I just wanted to drop by for a bit since I’ll be M.I.A for almost two months! I’m really excited to leave this place for a while though, and experience something new. Yes, that’s it; something new! Sometimes life feels like the same old story. We have almost every day planned for ourselves. Life can be too predictable, but I have decided to change that 😛 Come what may, I say! Come what may…

I also want to address Soulful Stardust‘s birthday post that she dedicated to me. I feel like an ass for not having said anything yet. Truth is, I got real emotional. It was such a cute post! I laughed, smiled, felt sad and happy. You might be wondering why I would feel sad. It was such an optimistic post, right? The thing is that we might not be able to study together anymore. Soul wants to study in another country if she gets the opportunity. I wish her well in all she does and that she will get exactly what she wants. But deep inside I wish she would stay here with me. It’s the deep truth that lies inside of my heart. I feel like a boss for being able to say that 😛 We’re a retarded dynamic duo that I don’t wish to see split… Regardless, I wish the same thing that you do, Soul. Ultimately, that we will be able to wish each other a happily happy birthday every year. No matter where we are in the world … ❤

I leave this confused girl in your dear readers hands for the time being until I come back. Wishing everyone a blessed summer break with this crazy song! ❤ 

[Dazzling Snowfall]


Could You Have Gone to Sleep Feeling “Hunger”?

This is really not KPOP related, or related to anything we usually post here. It’s just something that got me thinking last night, and I had to share it. My dad was away on a work trip, so I went to sleep with my mom because their room is cooler than mine. During the summer, my room pretty much transforms into an oven.

So these days we have been preparing and helping out for my cousins wedding. We have recently bought clothes for it, and other various things. Not so pricey, yet you can’t say they’re cheap either. Now as we were speaking, my mom suddenly says “Think of all the people that go to sleep feeling hunger”.. and although it’s not really a new phrase for me, it somehow really got me thinking for a very long time. Not “hungry” but “hunger”. She continued, “Yet, we spend so much time and money on these things”….That… is so true. I know we can all nod to this. We take it in through one ear, and pass it out the other, and eventually move on. But even you know what it feels to be hungry, you know the feeling. Just imagine. Would you be able to do it? To that extent?

Just because I’m born on the higher end, do I really deserve more? What if I didn’t have anything..

Think about it seriously, and it will really feel very strange. The things we buy cheap here could actually be a lot of money in third world countries. It could be food for days and days. Then what about the pricier things?

Do we really do enough?

When I see those kids from Somalia or from other countries that have been affected by natural disasters, I feel like crap. I remember something my teacher once told me: “The moment we think we have helped enough, is when they need us the most”. When these occurrences happen, and some time passes, we tend to think that “we have helped” and they’re probably ok now. Imagine how many other people are thinking the same? So basically, when everyone thinks this way, and stops doing anything, what will they have? Do you think it’s enough with what they got in the start? Doesn’t that also have an end-date?

Aah.. These things are really nothing new. I just had to get this strange feeling out. Maybe we all can be a bit better at giving to charity, and maybe I reach out to someone out there. We’re good at taking quality for low fees, so we should at least feel a little shame.

My heart sinks, and I want to disappear from embarrassment. I look at my 1 year old niece, and imagine how much I love her, and how I wouldn’t be able to bear it if she had to go to sleep feeling hunger. Then I think of all the people who actually have to do that…


(“Walking through the time of remembrance” by Nell)

Every day is a blessing. If not blissful, learn to make it something others can feel grateful for.
– Soulful Stardust.